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  • oh and i thought id redo this. just coz.

     

    Age: 15
    Height: 161cm
    Weight: 45kg

    Highest Weight: 56kg
    Lowest Weight: 45kg
    Goal Weight: 43kg

    Favorite Diet Food: jelly, fruit, veggies, rice cakes, egg white omelette, subway salads, any salads really. soup, etc.
    Favorite Binge Food : pasta. cookies. muffins. chocolate. cheese oh god cheese. lots of it. pizza. asian food. did i say cheese?

    Favorite Exercise: running

    Favorite Thinspo? never was a fan of that shit.

    When Did It Start? few months ago


    Do You Want Help? no


    How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? on a good day around 650. on a mediocre day 850. on a less than mediocre day 900-100. on a binge day…idek.

    What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? 

    im not the same.

    Are You In A Relationship? 
    yes

    Are You Depressed? 
    nuuhp

    Ever Been To A Psychologist? 
    i love my shrink :)

    I AM - 
    [?] anorexic
    [x] ednos 
    [x] bulimic 
    [ ] living off diet pills 
    [x] hungry (mentally)
    [x] thirsty 
    [x] drinking something (lots of  tea)
    [x] Under 100lbs 
    [x] starving yourself 
    [ ] participating in a fast 


    PEOPLE - 
    [x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic 
    [ ] call me fat 
    [x] say I’m skinny 
    [ ] say I’m ugly 
    [x] say I’m pretty 
    [x] spread rumors about me 
    [x] force me to eat 
    [x] say I eat too much 
    [x] wish I’d eat more 
    [x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic 


    I WISH - 
    [x] I was THIN 
    [x] I had a better body 
    [ ] I didn’t have to eat 
    [x] I could control myself 
    [ ] I was under 110lbs
    [x] I could avoid food 
    [x] I could hide what I am 
    [ ] I wasn’t fat 
    [x] I was pretty

    [ ] I could stop being ana

    [ ] I could stop being mia 

    I LOVE - 
    [ ] feeling hungry 
    [x] seeing a difference when fasting 
    [ ] shaking 
    [ ] being weak 
    [x] losing weight 
    [ ] being anorexic/bulimic 
    [x] green tea 
    [ ] diet pills 
    [x] being able to turn down food 
    [x] feeling good about myself 

    APPEARANCE 
    [x] I am shorter than 5’4. 
    [x] I think I’m ugly sometimes. 
    [x] I have many scars. 
    [ ] I tan easily 
    [x] I wish my hair was a different color. 
    [ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. 
    [ ] I have a tattoo. 
    [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. 
    [ ] I have/had braces. 
    [x] I wear glasses. 
    [x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
    [x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. 
    [ ] I have more than 2 piercings. 
    [ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. 
    [x] I have freckles. 

    FAMILY 
    [ ] I’ve sworn at my parents. 
    [ ] I’ve run away from home. 
    [ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house. 
    [x] My biological parents are together. 
    [ ] I have a sibling less than one year old. 
    [x] I want to have kids someday. 
    [ ] I’ve had children. 
    [ ] I’ve lost a child. 

    EMBARRASSMENT 
    [x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation-how is that embarrassing..? :/
    [ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
    [ ] I’ve peed from laughing. 
    [x] I’ve snorted while laughing. 
    [x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. 
    [ ] I’ve glued my hand to something 
    [x] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. 
    [ ] I’ve had my trousers rip in public. 

    RELATIONSHIPS 
    [ ] I’m single 
    [x] I’m in a relationship. 
    [ ] I’m engaged. 
    [ ] I’m married. 
    [ ] I’ve gone on a blind date. 
    [ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper. 
    [x] I miss someone right now. 
    [x] I have a fear of abandonment. 
    [ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship. 
    [ ] I’ve gotten divorced 
    [x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. 
    [ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. 
    [ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
    [ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship. 

    SEXUALITY 
    [x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex. 
    [ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 
    [x] I am a cuddler. 
    [x] I’ve been kissed in the rain. 
    [ ] I have kissed a stranger. 

    HONESTY 
    [x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t 
    [x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. 
    [x] I’ve snuck out of my house. 
    [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. 
    [x] I am keeping a secret from the world. 
    [x] I’ve cheated while playing a game. 
    [x] I’ve cheated on a test. 
    [ ] I’ve been suspended from school. 

    BAD TIMES 
    [x] I’ve consumed alcohol. 
    [ ] I regularly drink. 
    [ ] I can’t swallow pills. 
    [x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem 
    [ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. 
    [x] I shut others out when I’m upset. 
    [ ] I take anti-depressants. 
    [x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS. 
    [x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it. 
    [x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose. 
    [ ] I’m addicted to self harm. 
    [x] I’ve woken up crying 

    [x] I’ve lost weight 
    [ ] I’ve gained weight 
    [x] My weight holds me back 
    [x] Weight consumes me. 


    [x] I’m at my thinnest 
    [ ] I’m at my biggest 
    [x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
    [x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
    [x] My weight affects my mood 
    [x] I weigh myself daily 

    [x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
    [ ] I thrive on compliments 
    [x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
    [ ] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
    [x] I get depressed after I eat 
    [x] I’ve skipped a meal 
    [x] I’ve thrown food away 
    [x] I’ve spit food out 
    [x] I’ve fasted 
    [ ] I’ve taken diet pills 
    [x] I’ve used laxatives 
    [x] I’ve purged 

    [x] I exercise 
    [x] I exercise so I can eat 
    [x] I work out secretly 
    [x] I work out daily 
    [x] I exercise to counteract eating 
    [x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion 

    I’ve done: 
    [x] Weed 
    [ ] Cigarettes 
    [x] Alcohol 
    [ ] Diet pills 
    [x] Pain killers 
    [ ] Anti-depressants 
    [ ] Ecstasy 
    [ ] LSD 
    [ ] PCP 
    [ ] Mushrooms 
    [ ] Speed 
    [ ] Cocaine 
    [ ] Other  

    [x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
    [~] I have a ED blog 
    [ ] I look at thinspo 
    [ ] I collect thinspo 
    [x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites 

    [x] I count calories
    [x] I’ve had negative intake days 
    [x] I avoid food 
    [x] I hate food 
    [x] I love food 

    [x] I want to be this way
    [ ] I don’t want to be like this 
    [x] I wish I could have more control 
    [ ] Being thin is my top priority (at the moment)
    [x] I don’t want to get better 
    [ ] I am in treatment

    [x] I’m doing this for me 
    [x] I’m doing this for someone 
    [x] I’m doing this to prove myself




  • June 4, 2010

    1 year ago





  • i havent been this thin since i was 11. weew.




  • 1 year ago





  • looked fun.

     

    Age: 15
    Height: 161cm
    Weight: 49kg

    Highest Weight: 56kg
    Lowest Weight: 48kg
    Goal Weight: 47kg

    Favorite Diet Food: apples, rice cakes, tuna, salads, short blacks, egg white omelette, grapefruit
    Favorite Binge Food : chocolate, biscuits, cheese, muffins, cookies, carb loaded crap

    Favorite Exercise: running

    Favorite Thinspo? thinspo can fuck off

    When Did It Start? few months ago


    Do You Want Help? no


    How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? < 900

    What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? 

    still needs work

    Are You In A Relationship? 
    yes

    Are You Depressed? 
    for other reasons yes

    Ever Been To A Psychologist? 
    i love my shrink :)

    I AM - 
    [ ] anorexic
    [x] ednos 
    [x] bulimic 
    [ ] living off diet pills 
    [x] hungry (mentally)
    [x] thirsty 
    [x] drinking something (lots of  tea)
    [ ] Under 100lbs 
    [x] starving yourself 
    [ ] participating in a fast 


    PEOPLE - 
    [x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic 
    [ ] call me fat 
    [x] say I’m skinny 
    [ ] say I’m ugly 
    [x] say I’m pretty 
    [x] spread rumors about me 
    [x] force me to eat 
    [x] say I eat too much 
    [x] wish I’d eat more 
    [x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic 


    I WISH - 
    [x] I was THIN 
    [x] I had a better body 
    [ ] I didn’t have to eat 
    [x] I could control myself 
    [x] I was under 110lbs
    [x] I could avoid food 
    [x] I could hide what I am 
    [x] I wasn’t fat 
    [x] I was pretty

    [ ] I could stop being ana

    [ ] I could stop being mia 

    I LOVE - 
    [ ] feeling hungry 
    [x] seeing a difference when fasting 
    [ ] shaking 
    [ ] being weak 
    [x] losing weight 
    [ ] being anorexic/bulimic 
    [x] green tea 
    [ ] diet pills 
    [x] being able to turn down food 
    [x] feeling good about myself 

    APPEARANCE 
    [x] I am shorter than 5’4. 
    [x] I think I’m ugly sometimes. 
    [x] I have many scars. 
    [ ] I tan easily 
    [x] I wish my hair was a different color. 
    [ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. 
    [ ] I have a tattoo. 
    [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. 
    [ ] I have/had braces. 
    [x] I wear glasses. 
    [x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
    [x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. 
    [ ] I have more than 2 piercings. 
    [ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. 
    [x] I have freckles. 

    FAMILY 
    [ ] I’ve sworn at my parents. 
    [ ] I’ve run away from home. 
    [ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house. 
    [x] My biological parents are together. 
    [ ] I have a sibling less than one year old. 
    [x] I want to have kids someday. 
    [ ] I’ve had children. 
    [ ] I’ve lost a child. 

    EMBARRASSMENT 
    [x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation-how is that embarrassing..? :/
    [ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
    [ ] I’ve peed from laughing. 
    [x] I’ve snorted while laughing. 
    [x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. 
    [ ] I’ve glued my hand to something 
    [x] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. 
    [ ] I’ve had my trousers rip in public. 

    RELATIONSHIPS 
    [ ] I’m single 
    [x] I’m in a relationship. 
    [ ] I’m engaged. 
    [ ] I’m married. 
    [ ] I’ve gone on a blind date. 
    [ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper. 
    [x] I miss someone right now. 
    [x] I have a fear of abandonment. 
    [ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship. 
    [ ] I’ve gotten divorced 
    [x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. 
    [ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. 
    [ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
    [ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship. 

    SEXUALITY 
    [x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex. 
    [ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 
    [x] I am a cuddler. 
    [x] I’ve been kissed in the rain. 
    [ ] I have kissed a stranger. 

    HONESTY 
    [x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t 
    [x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. 
    [x] I’ve snuck out of my house. 
    [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. 
    [x] I am keeping a secret from the world. 
    [x] I’ve cheated while playing a game. 
    [x] I’ve cheated on a test. 
    [ ] I’ve been suspended from school. 

    BAD TIMES 
    [x] I’ve consumed alcohol. 
    [ ] I regularly drink. 
    [ ] I can’t swallow pills. 
    [x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem 
    [ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. 
    [x] I shut others out when I’m upset. 
    [ ] I take anti-depressants. 
    [x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS. 
    [ ] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it. 
    [x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose. 
    [ ] I’m addicted to self harm. 
    [x] I’ve woken up crying 

    [x] I’ve lost weight 
    [x] I’ve gained weight 
    [x] My weight holds me back 
    [x] Weight consumes me. 


    [ ] I’m at my thinnest 
    [ ] I’m at my biggest 
    [x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
    [x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
    [x] My weight affects my mood 
    [x] I weigh myself daily 

    [x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
    [ ] I thrive on compliments 
    [x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
    [ ] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
    [x] I get depressed after I eat 
    [x] I’ve skipped a meal 
    [x] I’ve thrown food away 
    [x] I’ve spit food out 
    [x] I’ve fasted 
    [ ] I’ve taken diet pills 
    [x] I’ve used laxatives 
    [x] I’ve purged 

    [x] I exercise 
    [x] I exercise so I can eat 
    [x] I work out secretly 
    [x] I work out daily 
    [x] I exercise to counteract eating 
    [x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion 

    I’ve done: 
    [x] Weed 
    [ ] Cigarettes 
    [x] Alcohol 
    [ ] Diet pills 
    [x] Pain killers 
    [ ] Anti-depressants 
    [ ] Ecstasy 
    [ ] LSD 
    [ ] PCP 
    [ ] Mushrooms 
    [ ] Speed 
    [ ] Cocaine 
    [ ] Other  

    [x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
    [~] I have a ED blog 
    [ ] I look at thinspo 
    [ ] I collect thinspo 
    [x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites 

    [x] I count calories
    [x] I’ve had negative intake days 
    [x] I avoid food 
    [x] I hate food 
    [x] I love food 

    [x] I want to be this way
    [ ] I don’t want to be like this 
    [x] I wish I could have more control 
    [ ] Being thin is my top priority (at the moment)
    [x] I don’t want to get better 
    [ ] I am in treatment

    [x] I’m doing this for me 
    [x] I’m doing this for someone 
    [ ] I’m doing this to prove myself


  • #ednos      #food      #weight loss      #calories      #survey      #thin      




    May 10, 2010

    2 years ago





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  • April 23, 2010

    2 years ago





    2 years ago





    2 years ago





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    theerrantmind:

    sincesheleft:

    Beirut - Elephant Gun

    We drink to die, we drink tonight. 

    Go run in the sun, go break into pools, go drink in the park. Take advantage of this freedom you have that accompanies youth. It’s the time of year for renewal, it’s the time of year where the warmth of the daylight washes away the dust on your soul from being put away all winter. Smile, laugh, play, love. 




  • 2 years ago





  • I think back to how we were like sisters and we could tell each other everything. But I also think about all the shit I had to handle. I realize now how much of a tolerance level I have. How can you be so fucking selfish. When you’re both with someone the whole fucking world revolves around you. I sit there and accept it. I’m happy for you and I’m more than happy to get to know him and his friends. But fuuuck no, when I’m in a relationship I can’t

    1. See him

    2. Talk about him

    3. Hang out with his friends

    4. Basically be in a relationship with him

    Just fucking give me a break. Stick to what you know best: creating bullshit rumours and thriving off of people’s lives, going on road trips without me-you’re so-called ‘best friend’, creating drama and basically treating me as if I’m fucking invisible, then give me all the blame and baggage. God, I love you both so fucking much.




  • April 22, 2010

    2 years ago





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  • 2 years ago





  • i lost you… 

    :/




  • April 20, 2010

    2 years ago





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